||[Aug. 25th, 2006|12:10 am]
Life is great.. but it could be better!
This isn't a journal i want to share my life and my problems with but a journal that is supposed to help me achieve things. And since this is the first entry i guess it would be best to first define what exactely i wanna achieve. Most important: I wanna be happy. To be happy i need to have fun, like myself, be healthy, have friends and a purpose in life.
So what does it take to have fun? I guess it's a matter of attitude. If i decide to enjoy things it's more likely that i will. But it's also important that i don't stay away from everything that could be fun. I need to force myself to go to parties sometimes because there's a high chance i'll enjoy them. I need to make sure i don't stay at home at the computer or watching tv all the time.
Liking myself is much harder. Well i do like myself - but there's always ways to improve myself. These are either improving my character/behavior, my body or my attitude towards life. Since i don't wanna go in circles and improving my body is the only one of these three that doesn't overlap with the top categories above i guess i should concentrate on it in this paragraph. We already have "health" up there so what is left is looks. Looking better could be achieved by eating less, doing sports, wearing nice clothes and using the right make-up.
Now for the being healthy. I certainly need to eat healthier and do more sports as i already wanted to do for looking better. But it's also important to sleep enough, go outside sometimes and not watch computer- or tv-screens all the time.
Having friends is kind of related to having fun. Like if one goes to parties and spends more time outside one's own room it's more likely one will meet people and become friends. But there's also this problem of me not accepting people and not even wanting to be friends with anyone. I need to put more effort into building friendships and i need to go on practicing to not dislike people.
So that leaves having a purpose in life. I think studying something i'm interested in and doing things that look good on a cv is the most i can do at the moment. And it's enough too!